Encouraging or Discouraging?

Past few weeks were packed with classes, 3 tests were done. Sadly speaking, I failed two of them. Should I be discouraged or take it as a mentality booster? Haiz... 

*So DIScouraging, :O"

Well, life goes on. Work harder for the next time. :). Haha, this typical new girl that came in this UNI is weird yet funny. But won't talk much in here :P. It's bad to poke people's back. Next week will be a new block for me... A new system to learn... First day it's already having 5 CLASSES waiting. My GAWD... That will give me a cramp in my brain. X,X!. Pray hard my neurotransmitter will still function well. :O...

If situation still on going like this I can predict that I will REALLY fail soon, everyday just class, sleep, eat, play, sleep... Damn, no revision at all. Oh please, BRYAN! SHOW SOME EFFORT PLEASE?! T,T, I need some initiative please...

Dear Bryan,
   Please find yourself  ASAP, URGENT!!!
                                               From BRYAN.

Plan wise is easy, think wise is easy, but action is always the tricky part. 

I REALLY HAVE TO PICK UP SOME PACE ALREADY!!! 

"Your Altitude depends on your attitude not your aptitude."

Work hard 'ma boy, work hard...

Beginning of the endless journey.

Well, it is really been a while that since the last time I post a blog. haha, my first year in medical degree has started 3 weeks ago and yet I'm already dying while facing those books already.

*it is more or less like culture shock for me.

People tend to plan very hard but in the end fails the plan. I do plan, just I don't know why it just won't work on me. *damn, I'll really have to put some effort in working out plans.* Books, books, books... He will be my partner for the rest of my life I guess. In classes, ever since the lecturers start their lectures, automatically, eye lids will start being heavy, head will start nodding and mind will start wondering about grandmother's stories then *snap!* BLACKOUT! THERE GOES ONE DOWN! Gosh, I tend to stay awake in the class but still.... 

Oh well, I still have to work on that issue. Good luck to me on that.

Along this week something happened... not to say it is a BIG case or problem to me, it seems to be just a pinky finger problem... Superiors seems to be very mad about that. Now only I know what is so great about the quote, "Don't Sweat The Small Stuff, It's All Small Stuff." Well, human with childish mentality will somehow do baby stuffs. First they "CRY", then they "POINT", at the end? They will get what they "DEMAND". Pffft, c'mon, grow up douchebags, stop being laugh stocks. Angrybirds? Well, they're Angry-babies for me now. 

Well, there's nothing much to fear about after all... 

Until next time folks.

To whom he pursue with hard work will be paid off.

Unexpected and MINDSCREWING Interview

Yesterday the medical faculty organized an interview for the pre-medical cadets that passed their pointers. But the information reached us was like the night before the happening day. Everything seems to be like nomrla to me that morning, but when the group was devided into 3, I was in the 1st group. Which one of the panel is the deputy dean. Well, my group was the toughest I can say. *Note: Deputy Dean is a psychologist*. When my turn came up, I went in and sat down, I got a severe brainfreeze situation, when she thre me the question, "why do you choose this profession?" then I answered her "I'm interested, I want to explore more, Help people and bla bla bla those kinda bullshits." Surprisingly, she gave me a astonishing answer, "You DIDN'T ANSWER my question". I was like WHAT?! Then the conversation continue. Throughout the whole interview I was bad. Badly influenced and HYPER-NERVOUS. Damn, I'm screwed now. How I wish I can write a letter,

Dear GOD,
    I need you help badly.
                        Yours Sincerely, BRYAN

Stay firm, be strong, think positive, be optimist.

What is collective "HELL"

Most of the people would say something that is very bad or suffering that is going to happen. But in my context, with what I experienced was, something that we can try to enjoy. From the start it would be quite mental, your muscles will be numb, tired, pain, mental will brake down, but slowly you will realise you are not the only one. People around you are having the same feeling. *execpt the one who is giving laaa =P*. Well, in the end, when you think back, it's quite a day tho. Mentality comes first than physical. You might be physically fit, but you might not be mentally fit. It's easy to say but when it comes true... *Hahaha...* only you will know.
Peace out yo. =P. Stay fit!!!

XOXO...

Warded I

All I remember was PAIN. Endoscopy looks fine to me when I look at the overview. But when you really are in that situation it will be different. First I thought that I would be completely anesthetize then only the camera will be inserted from my mouth into my stomach. What i encountered was that, I was half awake and the doctor started the operation. DAMN, it was awful. What the doctor told me was, "you will feel a bit uncomfortable, but just swallow don't go against it." DAMN, felt cheated. But the pain didn't last long, just for a while then the drug took place. The next thing I know is that I'm on the bed. Throat was extremely uncomfortable and pain. GOSH, I'm HEALTHY!!! Why do appointments have to be postponed for months?! I have stomach problem two months ago NOT now. Well, who cares, as long as I'm healthy, some body check-ups will do. Stay healthy readers.

XOXO...

算了吧。

有时候不是你想不想而是你行不行。
Many things might seems to be easy to reach but forbidden to touch.

Yesterday

It was a day of "meeting"? or "gathering"? It's funny that I don"t even know what I went for. But still happy to be present there. :) When the big guy talks, i thought i'm on the wrong table with the wrong person. The way he speaks is like nobody's bussiness. But it's good to have such people to cheer the awkward scene up. NICE TO MEEET you BTW. xD. Indeed, they didn't plan much, thought that i would run so far from my house and just to have a sip of drinks. LOL. It was weird. Join in the movie which is quite nice. Abraham movie, it was quite a movie but still watching alone feels stupid. =O I didn't care tho. After the movie they went shopping. I was like serious "SHOPPING"? Went in jusco and look for goods. But there is still having members purchasing their needs. Played in that department. Fun time.

BTW, Nice to meet you TWO guys and happy to see you two girls.

*Hello Bryan lim ah?
-Yes?
*Wrong number.

My First 42KM - 23th June

The day was kinda windy, not to say nice weather, just that it is a bit tooo humid. When I was still on the way to the area, I had never thought of it would be sooooooo tough not until my senior ask me that how many power gels tat i took with me. I replied "none", then he gave me a very astonishing look and replied "you must be crazy, doing 42 without supplements". First, I had thought of it before but then i thought it might not be neccessary. Before i start the race i still grabbed 4 gels from seniors.

My position in the crowd was toooo far behind. From the front line until me position i think it might have around 100M+ gap. When it started for the first 21KM i ran quite fun, quite okaaaay. But after that it was KILLING!!! My friend Vignesh joined me after the first 10KM. He accompanied my throughout the whole session. People might not see how tough it . But seriously, 21KM is not the problem, the problem is after the 21KM you will know WHO'S YOUR DADDY. In the second half of the marathon my leg "broke down" numerous times. These times often tells me to "give up Bryan, you doesn't have to do this". But guess what? Fark that.I continue and nailed it nicely. I finished it quite slow. with a 4Hr 40Min time. But it's really quite a run. People that have never tried before should try it out. But train before you run... Chill Yo.

Down The Slope.

Today I was supposingly having a nice three day two night holiday. But it ended up in my hostel. Many may say that I'm nuts. But I really can't take it at the particular moment. Those things that I have to concern about- transport, time, budget.... NUISANCE! That's what I can say about it.Whole day I stood fairly moodless. With the same flat tone thinking back the problems. YES, there may be solutions for these problems, but I really just want to "RUN AWAY" from it. Step aside from that, just only a month more or less left, then it will be my FINALs. Sadly speaking, I'm still laying around and being lazy. How idiotic am I? Not much, just as much as a person can fail to do the same thing again and again. I have been trying to control my temper to be a much more delightful person. *I've never fail to do that tho, just sometimes a bit off the limit with my replies.*

Be calm, think nice, plan ahead. That would be my new principle.

Craved Grave? Nope...

Life as an officer cadet had only just started. Today, it was the day where all the juniors in 2011 intake enroll into their respective Battalions. There are four battalions in sum- Tuah, Jebat, Kasturi and Lekir. Where the "pre-battalion" before we gain enough experience to be enrolled in to these battalions is "Lekiu". Before this, due to some unsatisfactory of some other cadets, I was redirected into Battalion Jebat from Tuah. "Haha..." but it's quite not a difference compared to what people described.

Keep it short. ;).