Procrastination

I took thing too easy.

Fucked my life...

Fucked it up... 

Fucked my academic...

To lose, To embrace

People come, people go...

Every person that comes into our lives are not meant to stay forever...

That's why when we have the chance we will have to cherish them...

Treat them right... 

Understand them....

Sometimes when it goes, it will never be back... 

People put hopes, people get disappointments... 

People hold hands, people walk alone... 

Sometimes, we may wanted to make things clear, but sometime it's would be better if we make it just the way it suppose to be...

When time comes, people will get to know the truth... 

The truth that portray what we think and how we feel... 

This is what we call, a TOUGH LIFE. 

To remember, to forget, and to embrace... 

A Day

Should I call it, satisfied? 

Haha... It's not about the money that we spent is the outcome that we're able to see... 

Happiness....

Satisfaction...

:)

As long as you are happy... 

I will try it out... 

Indeed it was a day with you... :) 

反义词

When things are going smoothly, people will see it positively...

When things are going against them, people will see it negatively...

This is what life portrays today...

Obey me, I will keep you alive...

Disobey me, fuck you, hell you go...

Moral of the story? 

You don't fuck with people's life, fuck your life first when your life fucks you.

#getalife

Beauty?

She's not beautiful.

But she is one of a kind...

我还想她 - 林俊杰

泪水 将我淹没 到底谁该难过

究竟 是谁放掉 这段感情

我才终于明白 办不到的承诺 就成了枷锁

现实中幸福永远缺货

 

请告诉她 我不爱她

笑着难过 自我惩罚

想终止这一切挣扎 横了心 说真心谎话

 

别告诉她 我还想她

恨总比爱容易放下

当泪水堵住了胸口 就让沉默 代替所有回答

 

我才终于明白 办不到的承诺 就成了枷锁

现实中幸福永远缺货

 

请告诉她 我不爱她

笑着难过 自我惩罚

想终止这一切挣扎 横了心 说真心谎话

 

别告诉她 我还想她

恨总比爱容易放下

当泪水堵住了胸口 就让沉默 代替所有回答

 

我不爱 我不痛 我不懂

我的心 早已掏空

真心话 言不由衷

 

请告诉她 我不爱她

笑着难过 自我惩罚

想终止这一切挣扎 横了心 说真心谎话

 

别告诉她 我还想她

恨总比爱容易放下

当泪水堵住了胸口 就让沉默 代替所有回答

 

别告诉她 我还想她 就让沉默 代替所有回答

 

Stay strong

The strength to stand comes from the bravery to fall.

Chances

Everybody deserves a chance.

When you like it, go for it.

You don't wait it to come.

When it slipped away catch it back.

Chances might not come the second time...

But make that once count...

Make that once count like tomorrow never exist.

Life goes on - Gym Class Heroes feat. Oh Land

Let's go!

[Oh Land - Chorus]

Oh when the day is gone

Oh when the nights are long

Life goes on

Life goes on

We gotta live it up til it's gone (live it up)

Cuz we won't be around too long

Life goes on

Life goes on (yea!)

[Travie McCoy]

Lately it seems the good dreams are few and far between

Nightmares are putting fires out with gasoline (damn)

And I'm just tryna stay righteous

Sometimes I see my own face in Christ's likeness

And apart from my life's vices, fifteen years young had my first mid-life crisis

But it's tough to stay upright and pious when people you hold highest be the ones that most biased

My daddy told me misery loves company

If that's the case they must hate they ain't getting none from me

I don't sweat it, it's embedded in my DNA

I got a good heart and bad brains BMA

[Chorus]

Oh when the day is gone (yea!)

Oh when the nights are long (uh huh)

Life goes on (life goes on)

Life goes on (They say that life goes on. Let's go!)

We gotta live it up til it's gone

Cuz we won't be around too long

Life goes on (Life goes on)

Life goes on (You know that life goes on)

[Travie McCoy]

Up late facebookin, playin could've been

And starin at an empty bed my ex-girl should've been in

Thinking what I woulda done different

Not a damn thing cuz finally I'm done with it

Besides I got a girl that adores me

And I never take for granted all things she does for me (never)

I shoot the moon down and put it on a wedding band

And sing "These Arms of Mine" to her

She's Otis Redding fan

And she'll never forget it man (never)

Cuz she knows she'll never find a better man

Let's go ahead with these wedding plans

Come on, let's sing a song life goes on

[Chorus]

Oh when the day is gone (day's gone)

Oh when the nights are long (nights are long)

Life goes on (life goes on)

Life goes on (you know that life goes on. come on!)

We gotta live it up til it's gone (live it up)

Cuz we won't be around too long

Life goes on (life goes on)

Life goes on (they say that life goes on)

[Bridge]

You take too much for granted

(Too much. We don't want an inch we want miles)

I just can't understand it

(Can't understand it. Is it really that hard to smile?)

We don't ask, we demand it

(We demand it. It's gone when it's gone.)

And I'm tryin not to panic

(But you know what they say. Life goes on.)

[Chorus]

Oh when the day is gone (yea!)

Oh when the nights are long

Life goes on (life goes on)

Life goes on (you know that life goes on. come on!)

We gotta live it up til it's gone (live it up)

Cuz we won't be around too long

Life goes on (life goes on)

Life goes on (life goes on)

They say that life goes on

You know that life goes on

They say that life goes on

You know that

You know that

You know that life goes on

缘

When things come together at the same time people will come to a decision to choose.

When they pick either one, the other one will be neglected.

Sorrow, pain, heart breaking...

To see either of the party suffer in vain it scorches, it hurts...

Soul being torn in parts...

Thoughts all over the place...

Perhaps an end to everything is the best solution for me...

Yes, you can curse me, that's a bitch's reaction.

Yea, I hide from reality, I hide from these problems... 

I know it hurts...

Everybody hurts...

You will be fine...

Very soon...

You won't be seeing me around, or listening any news about me.

That should be the best way for me to hinder myself from your life...

It was indeed a wonderful 3 weeks...

The first 3 weeks that I got...

Awkwardness, sweet, cute, maturity, immaturity....

All the feeling was there... 

I won't feel sorry...

Because I don't want to be regretful to make this decision...

Make your way to success...

You will be one hell of the most outstanding lawyer...

Bless upon your success...

I will still watch around...

I am not the superman that you think of... 

I am just a pathetic human with the mirror of myself that I brought together...

You will be a happy person...

Blessed luck upon you. :)

E.N.D

You and you are the best that I could have met in my life.

F.L.A.W.L.E.S.S.

如今

Everything has come to an end.

Ha.ha.ha... I guess I am really a jerk. If I am why don't carry on with what I really was before this?

Heart breaking?

Curse me?

When we see what we do in past, it takes a while to remind us...

What is wrong with this, what was right, what we had done... 

Yeah, when I look back, indeed I was quite a failure.

Now?

A more pathetic failure...

Fail to see the stance of another person...

I was firm with my stance because I felt it was right for me...

I asked everything because I was too stupid to know everything...

"Mom, why can't I be a more considerate person?"

"Because you worry too much, you think too much, Bryan..."

自豪，自大。。。

哈。哈。哈。。。

I guess I really created a hell demon out of myself...

You were very considerate...

I have a weak point, I guess is the weakest point... 

I tend to agree along with what people stress on...

When people get furious with their stance, I will keep my thoughts away and agree along... 

*maybe not always...*

But when it happens, most of thetime it  works... Because I don't want to get into trouble...

I'm a happy person. Not because I am.

Because I learn to forget.

Being forgetful maybe is the biggest gift I can get from god personally besides my family.

I don't seek for happiness...

I only seek for understanding...

I want to understand people, I want to be understood by people...

That's why I ask...

I seek for answers... 

But it does not work everytime I tried...

Lies,

My life is a lie...

A lie to be told...

真真假假，假假真真。。。

I guess it's no longer important...

You have made the decision...

When the time comes...

I will take the reality... 

You suffered, she was happy, I was contradicting myself.

Then, hate me, leave me, seek for a better life... 

A more freedom space...

I don't want to give false hope to happiness... 

Hypocrite I would say...

It will end... The pain may stay awhile, but she has more time, more people around to relief...

I just want a small box...

A small space for myself... 

To hide, to express, to talk to myself... 

You and you...

Forget me...

Deny me...

Curse me...

I don't want to be out there in the life.

I just want my box.

A life with only my mirror in the box.

What is the opposite side of everything?

Nothing, he answered. 

Who we are

History tells us who we are and what are we made up of.

Now I realize I do like History.

Pathetic me

People see me as a person which is,

Happy, childish, maybe dark, sporty...

Whatever...

But... 

I found myself has no difference from the petty little kittens at the end of the street.

Being neglected,

Tossed around,

No matter how hard you try you will never be competent.

Maybe I should just stay where I came from and have my own pathetic life... 

A feedback? indeed, it is a feedback. 

#gofuckyourself

Hidden shadow

Phantom of the opera?

To be hidden or to be exposed,

To watch over,

To embrace,

To understand,

To be neglected,

To be outcast,

To be called off,

Phantom haunts,

I will watch your back.

"You will never walk alone." - Liverpool FC

Be someone

Hard work is what takes to make a better person.

Sacrifice is what takes to make hard work.

Buckle up BRYAN!

You have a WAR to FIGHT!

Disappointment

Things are changing.

I'm getting lazier and lazier.

What motivates me?

Basically nothing motivates me...

I can't find a single solid reason to persuade myself to strive for it. 

Determination is just not there, people use to say that it's all about your mentality. 

Guess what, I just doesn't have that mentality already... 

Nothing comes easy, but hard work doesn't come whenever you wish.

How I wish I can study all day long without stopping, but my thoughts like to wander around and think about other people's business.

While in the class, lecturers use to do reviews that what we've learnt.

After the question is thrown out during the review, I can't really refresh back a single clue.

Maybe I'm just, not that competent.

There're thousands of medical students out there, but I'm not the type with super self esteem and brilliant brains.

Looking at the smart ones I will feel guilty.

Looking back to myself, I feel stupidity.

Yeah, people can say what they want, I can act as much as I want.

I'm just not the person who I used to be.

A weaker person, is who am I.

I AM DISAPPOINTED, BRYAN.

#digaholeandburymyself

People don't see themselves

旁观者清。

I keep those feelings for myself.
If I were to speak, you and I will ended up in a fight. Why? Nevermind, then, feel whatever you feel is right, assume whatever you assume is right. You will always be the one who is right.
Having an argument is not fun.
When argument comes, who is it to blame? Me? Yeah, perhaps... Because I'm the stupid one.
I'm no worthy your respect. Keep that in mind...
Reality tells us, a million deeds you have done before, will never win a mistake you do.
People will remember the wrong things you have done. Not the right things.


#fuckmyownlife.

Be Happy. Be Fucked Up.