Optimistic

Maybe it's just some other problems?

I guess it's just my fault that made her like this?

Bryan... Bear this in mind, you will never be the right one... 

Always keep left. :) 

Point of View?

When you are a senior, act like one.

When you become a senior,

Be the ones who have brains,

Don't be scumbags seniors.

Total retards...

The world don't spin for you.

Know your rights!

Disheartening?

Well, I just done my semester2 finals...

Just at the moment I wanted to have a chill...

There comes my Physiology Professor, Prof Dr Amin...

He came and told us about our final condition.

What he said was very de-moralizing I guess, or he's trying to help by telling the truth? 

Well, indeed, I guess my class did some real shit there...

*including me myself done some shit on the paper I guess...

There it goes... One paper DOWN...

Morale... DOWN...

Man down man down... Need backup!!! 

FYI: I flung my Physiology paper (pre-assumption)

What about now?

Semester 2 final, no one mentioned it was ever easy. 

It was never easy...

First, it was the physiology paper...

I guess this time is the first time I failed myself to do the paper nicely...

I mean in sense of university level?

First look: indeed easy, yet confusing.. 

*maybe the gap between the last test that I took was too long*

I know basically what is the question asking but, I can't answer...

People use to say, if don't know then "tembak saja la"... Well, I did what exactly the phrase mentioned...

Today, it was the another hell paper... 

ANATOMY...

It took a little while for me to finish my revision for the paper...

Or I should say, it was so much that I can't finish. So, I assume I finished...

Multiple Choice Questions.... 

My hardest choice in life can be, 

TRUE OR FALSE already...

If I get it right... 1mark granted...

If I got it wrong? Half mark deducted... 

A good question that I am asking myself... 

"Why you bloody choose MEDICINE???"

You pick the pain, you bear the pain.

"Be a man!" - Russell Peters

Days before semester 2 finals?

I almost scared the shit out of myself.

I lost my file with tonnes of notes inside...

Then only I came to know that it was in the class area.

Someone took it...

Don't kindergarden teach kids that if you borrow you must RETURN?

Damn, if such basic thing you need people to teach you, I would suggest you, QUIT LIFE. 

Damn! Lost my temper there....

*breathe, breathe, breathe....

Thinking on the other side, maybe I misplaced it?

*that's my bloody effort...

I use "blood" and "sweat" to make it out.

Garsh!!!

*control control...

Blame no one... But myself...

I was the one who didn't take good care of it.

I was the one who trust around me too much...

Blame no one... Blame no one....

A mute would have speak unheard words;

A deaf would have listened spoken words,

A friend can be your best assistant;

A foe can be one of your friends.

Selfishness is not just a personality,

It's human nature.

Mirror by Justin Timberlake

Aren't you somethin' to admire?

'Cause your shine is somethin' like a mirror

And I can't help but notice

You reflect in this heart of mine

If you ever feel alone and

The glare makes me hard to find

Just know that I'm always

Parallel on the other side

'Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul

I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go

Just put your hand on the glass

I'll be tryin' to pull you through

You just gotta be strong

'Cause I don't wanna lose you now

I'm lookin' right at the other half of me

The vacancy that sat in my heart

Is a space and now your home

Show me how to fight for now

And I'll tell you, baby, it was easy

Comin' back here to you once I figured it out

You were right here all along

It's like you're my mirror

My mirror staring back at me

I couldn't get any bigger

With anyone else beside of me

And now it's clear as this promise

That we're making two reflections into one

'Cause it's like you're my mirror

My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

Aren't you somethin' an original

'Cause it doesn't seem merely a sample

And I can't help but stare, 'cause

I see truth somewhere in your eyes

I can't ever change without you

You reflect me, I love that about you

And if I could, I would look at us all the time

'Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul

I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go

Just put your hand on the glass

I'll be tryin' to pull you through

You just gotta be strong

'Cause I don't wanna lose you now

I'm lookin' right at the other half of me

The vacancy that sat in my heart

Is a space and now your home

Show me how to fight for now

And I'll tell you, baby, it was easy

Comin' back here to you once I figured it out

You were right here all along

It's like you're my mirror

My mirror staring back at me

I couldn't get any bigger

With anyone else beside of me

And now it's clear as this promise

That we're making two reflections into one

'Cause it's like you're my mirror

My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

Yesterday is history

Tomorrow's a mystery

I can see you lookin' back at me

Keep your eyes on me

Baby, keep your eyes on me

'Cause I don't wanna lose you now

I'm lookin' right at the other half of me

The vacancy that sat in my heart

Is a space and now your home

Show me how to fight for now (please show me, baby)

I'll tell you, baby, it was easy

Comin' back here to you once I figured it out

You were right here all along

It's like you're my mirror

My mirror staring back at me

I couldn't get any bigger

With anyone else beside of me

And now it's clear as this promise

That we're making two reflections into one

'Cause it's like you're my mirror

My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

You are, you are the love of my life [x10]

Now you're the inspiration for this precious song

And I just wanna see your face light up since you put me on

So now I say goodbye to the old me, it's already gone

And I can't wait wait wait wait wait to get you home

Just to let you know, you are

You are, you are the love of my life [x8]

Girl you're my reflection, all I see is you

My reflection, in everything I do

You're my reflection and all I see is you

My reflection, in everything I do

You are, you are the love of my life [x16]

Human, we ourselves

People that do not think for themselves first is known to be stupid or idiot.

Watching people all around me...

Sarcasm, hypocrite, selfishness...

People with less humor or tolerance, they won't make things last, they won't think it from other perspective.

Yeah, they might be right but think deeper, the others can be right also.

It is just like maths,

An answer does not only have an equation to solve it.

Non-verbal cues...

Yeah, maybe I see it because I care...

But can't a friend take note of those cues?

I was thought to be tolerant, I was thought to be considerable.

But what people showed me... 

Is the sub-side of themselves.

Learn to choose friends people out there. Not all will treat you the way you treat them.

People don't see the small things, they only see the things that hurt them or parasite them the most. 

Life is not a playground for you to fuck around. Life fucks you before you fuck others. 

Perhaps a little space to stand?

Yeah, people around are amazing.

You have this,

He has that,

She has this and that..

Well, life is about competing...

You win the game? You're famous bro.

People being amazing always let me feel that they deserves more...

But why do I get things that I don't deserve?

Why when I compare, people like me can have something that don't belong to me?

Perhaps it's just a mistake?

Oh well, I see how long do it stays...

I gave it all, but it seems like people around are much better...

I just can't ignore...

They are good, this is the fact..

Maybe, I should say that,

"To deserve the best, one does not have to be amazing, you just have to be the right one to have it."

I will never be that level of class...

They are just like the "demi-god" class that I used to classified them.

The really amazing ones...

Me?

Where do I put myself?

Well, I am the one who is doing the chart...

I guess I am off the board?

I was never competent.

I don't put up a fight not because I worry that I will lose, it is just that I don't have that much of "level" to put up the fight. 

*PVP request fail.

(Only for gamers)

I want to be good, I want to be outstanding, I want to be seen, I guess somehow, someday, somewhere...

People will get to see who I am.

But now... Get to work buddy, exam is near... 

Good luck to myself.

#year1medicine #professionalexam

A little not too much

I think I lost my identity as chinese, or should I say, I lost my way...

I was lost along my path...

No one found me,

No one intends to find me...

I can be very stubborn I guess,

A total retard, all new level of fucked up human...

Silence...

It kills inside of me...

Stress...

It burdens inside of me...

Sacrifice...

This killed me...

I was never the one before...

Sorry to everyone that put high hopes on me... 

I just can do what I can...

Procrastination II

I gazed away and divert myself from the goal that I'm trying to achieve.

The days left were not much...

Finals I would say, it's just around the corner..

Preparation done were insufficient...

Now I will just able to do whatever I can to save myself. 

Push a bit, nail the books! This I would say to myself.

Rush to the end. Strive for the excellence...