Disappointment

Things are changing.

I'm getting lazier and lazier.

What motivates me?

Basically nothing motivates me...

I can't find a single solid reason to persuade myself to strive for it. 

Determination is just not there, people use to say that it's all about your mentality. 

Guess what, I just doesn't have that mentality already... 

Nothing comes easy, but hard work doesn't come whenever you wish.

How I wish I can study all day long without stopping, but my thoughts like to wander around and think about other people's business.

While in the class, lecturers use to do reviews that what we've learnt.

After the question is thrown out during the review, I can't really refresh back a single clue.

Maybe I'm just, not that competent.

There're thousands of medical students out there, but I'm not the type with super self esteem and brilliant brains.

Looking at the smart ones I will feel guilty.

Looking back to myself, I feel stupidity.

Yeah, people can say what they want, I can act as much as I want.

I'm just not the person who I used to be.

A weaker person, is who am I.

I AM DISAPPOINTED, BRYAN.

#digaholeandburymyself

People don't see themselves

旁观者清。

I keep those feelings for myself.
If I were to speak, you and I will ended up in a fight. Why? Nevermind, then, feel whatever you feel is right, assume whatever you assume is right. You will always be the one who is right.
Having an argument is not fun.
When argument comes, who is it to blame? Me? Yeah, perhaps... Because I'm the stupid one.
I'm no worthy your respect. Keep that in mind...
Reality tells us, a million deeds you have done before, will never win a mistake you do.
People will remember the wrong things you have done. Not the right things.


#fuckmyownlife.

Be Happy. Be Fucked Up.

I am a human too

Humans have feeling...
I have feelings...
It's okay I allow people to override me. But don't... Just don't over do it.
Really... Don't... It hurts bad inside of me...
I may looks like a weakling but... Don't just don't...
疯子什么都做得出。。。

The Backstage

I nearly shed a tear...
I don't understand because I don't want to think back...
It's not that I know what you're thinking, you're the most similar person to me that I could have met...
I know what you think, I know how you feel...
Darkest deep thoughts? Suicidal thoughts? I learn to forget...
I have been there and I have struggled before...
It hurts to take blame... But I will say "Thank you... *smiles*"
Things done, people claim...
But certain people do thing not to claim anything...
They just need trust...
Trust is the hardest gift a person can give...
If in return, too many task to be done, too many things to be remembered...
It's okay to be isolated...
It's okay to be ignored...
It's okay to be treated cold...
People that failed deserve these...
People done it why can't you?
Yeah, maybe I'm just... Too simple?
Turn your back to me...
I will still watch you back buddy...
Always... :3


#一次不忠，百次不容。

Balance?

There is no such thing as fair in this world... Everything was treated unfair...
I wanted to be fair but things will turn out bad...
A competition can't gave two winners... There is where I learn to worry-less and do more...

A Cling

Am I happy? Haha... I guess so...
As long as she's happy then I'll be happy...
Relationship for me, it's not something big... It's a cling for me... If we react more towards the cling, it might drop of easily...
But if we show no reaction, the cling will eventually get rusty...
As long as I know you're there for me, and i will be there for you... Thing maybe will turn out just fine. :)

#worryfree
#thinkingfree

对不起 谢谢

純白無瑕　溫柔芬芳
你洗的衣服　有你的模樣
滿身是汗　脫了又穿
你常笑我髒　男人難免啊
那種稀鬆平常的對白　已不再

我愛你　好愛你
對不起　謝謝　套上手中那只戒
我恨你　好恨你
對不起　謝謝　嘲笑我有多狼狽

你的善良　我的倔強
我們的小孩　會像誰模樣
常常在想　幾年之外
長睫毛女孩　單眼皮男孩
曾經近在咫尺的未來　已天涯

＊我愛你　好愛你
　對不起　謝謝　腦中住著你的臉
　我恨你　好恨你
　對不起　謝謝　孤獨刺著我的背＊