Maybe it's just me

Jealousy? Or I overreacted? Or I'm being bitchy? :S

No, stat calm, open up your mind...

It's just another friend around her...

Ya, just another friend, no harm...

Bryan, you think too much... Think too much... 

开心就好。。。:)

Flashbacks

After watching the movie "you're the apple of my eye" it reminds me of many things... Haha... Okay, I know I'm a bit outdated but it's because I missed it at the first place...

But watching the movie now have no difference, it's entertaining yet touching...

Everybody has their story to be told... 

A story to be shared...

Everybody will have that experience of loving someone yet letting the chance to go off...

Let's move forward people, brighter tomorrow is waiting for us...

Chances are ahead...

Yesterday is what we should learn from it. 

:) to hold on is good, but if is not yours, it will never be yours. :)

Move on peeps! 

One of my personal favorite

The Tears of the Blue Sky (azora no namida) by Hitomi Takahashi

(Translated lyrics)

All alone in the darkness, 
i knew the meaning of your tears 
i took a step towards where i wanted to be, 
but i didn't want to hurt anyone

The wind that crosses the ocean, 
once again heads towards tomorrow without hesitation 
why can't my heart move?

What fate awaits me? I don't want to regret being born 
there is courage in sorrow 
i believe i can grasp the light

Tears flow down from a clear blue sky
someday they'll change to a smile

The wind that quickly chased me 
slips between my fingers 
i'm still scared to trust, 
but i won't stay in the same place any longer

The moon softly tapped my shoulder, 
shining a moonlight path on the water 
i'm even forgetting how to hesitate

Even if a tomorrow of nothingness awaits 
there's a way to create something 
i will change the future that's been decided 
a strong love is welling up

The blue sky's tears overflowed 
it will surely be sunny tomorrow

So i can start walking towards 
what i saw up ahead 
i can go as far as i want, 
so i don't lose sight of myself

What fate awaits me? I don't want to regret being born 
there is courage in sorrow 
i believe i can grasp the light

The blue sky's tears rain down incessantly 
someday they'll change to a smile

小小的病痛

I didn't do that on purpose...

I wanted to text... 

But maybe it was my sudden mistake to decide not to text...

这就是我的小小病痛。。。

有时候就是过分的有信心。。。

就是自己害死了自己。。。

你的要求不困难。。。而是我自己复杂化了它。。。是我的错。。。

一个小小的讯息。。。造成了现在的局面。。。

也许我的思念你不会体会到或者比起我的还来得严重。。。

俩人在一起因该能很简单。。。

就是多了我这种废材吧。。。

我就没有一点点值得原谅的地方吗？

我这是想说声，对不起。。。

压力

从以前，到如今，我都没什么给自己压力，因该是我有点小聪明吧。但是，现在压力就像一种有威胁性的武器。。。我被压缩。。。

我已经忘了如何去笑。。。

压力真的存在吗？

Equality

I didn't wish for much... 

When I have problems I shared with you because you asked me...

When you have problems, I begged for it... But you pushed me away...

I know it's your life is not easy...

But at least let me know what should I do to help?

You don't need my help?

You need some space?

F**k space!

If you are upset, I will be ten times more than that... Because I care!

Don't say I don't know how you feel...

我是看脸色看了十八年活过来的。

What you show on your face, your text, I know how to interpret...

Yeah, sometimes I know I'm a control freak...

But, I just want you to open up your mind... I just want you to Share your problems...

Past, I no longer want to know...

I just want to know what is your current problems...

What are you facing... 

Maybe you can live on by ignoring me...

I can't... In out in out in out... Every SHIT in my brain is about you...

Nevermind... You win...

你赢了。。。我就看你的吧。。。

看着你来办。。。

孝，不需要等。

It took me away...

From days to days...

It doesn't seem long...

Yeah, indeed it was just 4months and 8days...

But she meant a whole lot to me...

If she's hurted, inside me, I was killed...

If she's sad, I would crack my head to cheer her up...

But the biggest mistake that I did was...

Letting her down, making her sad...

I didn't want to be like this...

I just want her to be happy...

I just want to know her more...

But it all started with my stupidity...

A slack which brought us into a fight...

If I can exchange my pride for her happiness, I would give in...

If I can give away money to bring her smile back, I would give in...

But... These didn't work... 

I can feel it's really hurtful to her...

I wanted to give her my part...

I wanted to take her pain and give her my happiness...

Why lord!!! Why can't you be fair with her?

I just want to see her smile...

A smile which will make up my whole day...

The mesmeriszing smile that I adore... 

I would kneel down and say I'm sorry dear dear...

I'M REALLY SORRY DEAR DEAR...

I miss your smile... 

Anxiety, I guess I inherited my parents genes.